Suffer inside out..

If he knows that I am talking about him... If he knows how suffer I am to know that I can't be his and he can't be mine... If he knows how much I care about him, if he knows that I'd fallen for him, how do he react? The questions just hang there, no answers, no replies. I can see, he loves his girl so much that no one can stop them. I can see that. I don't want to be a fire, burns their relationships just like that even if I can do that. If he knows how many times his face appears in my mind eventhough I've tried to avoid it. I wish he knew all these things, which is impossible. I can't tell him, I can't. He treats me like.... I don't know how to transfer it in words. But the way he treats me, it's like everything around me dissapear. And the world is just about me and him. I tried to avoid him, obviously, I CAN'T. I just can't. Maybe, I must find who I am and keep remembering that me and him = IMPOSSIBLE. I know I ain't that strong. I know..